momma_eskimo

momma_eskimo @ 2005-11-14T18:31:00

2005-11-14T23:31:57Z

This angel's dirty face is sore
Holding onto what she had before
Not sharing secrets with any old fool
Now she's gonna keep her cool

She wants to get naked.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-09-12T20:14:00

2005-09-13T00:17:10Z

This is by far the most depressed I have felt in so long. It is so hard to say goodbye to someone you love, but I have to be honest with myself. Everytime I try to express what's bothering me I get shrugged off and all the shit from the past gets brought up. Nothing ever gets resolved. It hurts so much because I really thought this was going to be forever. But how can it be forever when we can't get more than two weeks without fighting. I don't even know what to say anymore. This hurts so much...I wish I could curl up in a ball and die.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-08-23T19:14:00

2005-08-24T00:14:46Z

I hate my life right now.

Is that not the most cliche online journal entry you'll ever read.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-08-08T13:07:00

2005-08-08T17:37:57Z

A thought provoked me on the way into work this morning. I was thinking back to the days of CCD and one particular class in which the head Sister was talking about speaking in Tongues. At first I wanted to brush the thought aside as a result of my own skepticism; I mean the theory that someone could study religion so intensely that they were suddenly able to speak the mysterious "language of Heaven" is a little outlandish. But then I thought why the Hell not. I mean, you can't really disprove anything until you've tried it. Considering the boredom that has become life in the 01757, something so concentrated might be just what I need to distract myself. Though I don't see this becoming anything past the point of a caffiene-fueled idea, I am at least intrigued.

Sometimes studying psych makes me want a justification for every new thing that crosses my mind. I'm starting to realize that nothing is justified and while maybe close in purpose, nothing is ever 100% sincere.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-08-06T20:17:00

2005-08-07T00:16:58Z

You're skin
Oh yeah you're skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
And you know
For you I'd bleed myself dry

For you I'd bleed myself dry

I love you more than everything.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-08-01T12:42:00

2005-08-01T16:42:51Z

*Sigh of Relief* I got my life back.

We will go down as one of the Great Loves.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-07-28T09:38:00

2005-07-28T13:39:13Z

Everything sucks and I don't know how to fix it.

On a lighter note I dyed my hair again and it looks hot.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-07-08T09:41:00

2005-07-08T13:50:22Z

So let's hear it for being young and crazy with great friends! Our weekend long bender that led to a 4 am beach trip last weekend was nothing short of a blast. This weekend should be fun because I have a date with the hottest thing walking and I'm very excited about it.

I am
completly
head over heels
in love
for the first time
ever
and it is
the best feeling
in the entire world.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-06-21T21:26:00

2005-06-22T01:26:13Z

Everday things move all around me and I stay in the same place. I'm getting too old for this.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-06-20T11:55:00

2005-06-20T15:57:15Z

This weekend rocked.

Thursday Eric, Brian, Jimbo and I saw Dane Cook at the Melody Tent in Hyannis. We got there a little late but I don't think I stopped laughing for the whole forty minutes we caught. He is absolutely hilarious. Friday night we visited the barn and thanks to Nick and Greg I now have a kitten!! She's so tiny but she's a spunky one and I couldn't resist. I named her Angelina after my biggest Hollywood crush. [I still love Fluffy the most.] Saturday I finally cleaned my room and Saturday night Eric, Kevin, Jess, Joey, Christine, Sam, Jimbo, Me, Brian, and Brian's new grill all went to Tweeter and tailgated for Tom Petty. So, so fun. Yesterday was Eric's and my three monther. I think that's funny because it feels like so much longer. I wish such a fabulous weekend wouldn't feel like it only lasted five minutes. Office time is unbelievably slow. Two weeks until Fourth of July Weekend. One month until the PP. I think I finally decided what to do with my life.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-06-07T11:25:00

2005-06-07T15:27:20Z

"Maybe I'm amazed
at the way you love me all the time.
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you.
Maybe I'm amazed at the way
you pulled me out in time,
and hung me on a line.
Maybe I'm amazed at the way
I really need you."

I'm sorry for being stupid.
You mean too much.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-06-01T15:51:00

2005-06-01T19:50:15Z

School spirit motherfuckaaa.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-31T10:34:00

2005-05-31T14:42:18Z

Memorial Day Weekend...check. Highlights include the Lotus, Cafe Sorrento (not), Justin's party and visiting Eric's twins in Walpole. Tomorrow I quit drinking for a month. God help me.

I've been a downer lately.
I really am sorry.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-27T09:12:00

2005-05-27T13:31:52Z

Three day weekend...awesome. Especially because Thirsty Thursday once again kicked my ass. It's almost June and it's still 50 degrees and raining. What the hell. Supposedly the warm weather is on it's way, though. Christine is going to prom tonight. I'm jealous, I really miss that. As much as I couldn't wait to get out of high school sometimes I wouldn't mind going back. I had a lot of fun during those four years. Ugh, I sound old.

Apparently the bf and I have more friends than we know of.
Dropkick Murphys??

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-26T17:54:00

2005-05-26T22:10:40Z

I'm still paying for you.
It's not fair.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-25T15:10:00

2005-05-25T19:14:53Z

Crazy how it feels tonight
Crazy how you make it all alright, love
Crush me with the things you do
And I do for you anything too, oh
Sitting, smoking, feeling high
And in this moment it feels so right

~~Lovely lady~~, I am at your feet
Oh god I want you so badly
And I wonder this could tomorrow be so wonderous
As you there sleeping

Lets go, drive til mornin comes
Watch the sunrise and fill our souls up
We'll drink some wine til we get drunk, yeah...

It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
And is this real or am I dreaming

~~Lovely lady~~
Let me drink you please
I won't spill a drop, no, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me
Each moment
The more I love you
Crush me
Come on, oh yeah

It's crazy I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
Is this real or oh, am I dreaming

~~Lovely lady~~
I will treat you sweetly
Adore you, I mean you crush me
And it's times like these
When my faith I feel
I know how I love you
Come on, Come on
Baby

It's crazy I'm thinking
Just as long as you're around
I'm here I'll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down
To each other we'll be facing
My love
By love
We'll beat back the pain we've found
You know
I mean to tell you all the things I've been thinking deep inside,
My friend
Each moment the more I love you

Crush me
Come on
Baby
So much you have given, love
That I would give you back again and again
Oh my love
Meaning I'll hold you
But please, please just let me always....

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-18T15:09:00

2005-05-18T19:20:55Z

Tomorrow is Payday. And Thirsty Thurzzz. And Kevin's 21st Birthday!! And me and my hunny's 2 months as an offical couple. :) And I am in an excellent mood. I also found a History course that starts June 1st at Framingham State and am finally getting a little more organized. Baby steps.

Tonight the dog is going to have a photo session because I realized that he is growing SO fast. Oh my god, everyday he gets more cute and less well-behaved. We need to take him to obedience school before he starts eating little kids!

This weekend=Kevin's Birthday Bender and it's beach themed.
Rock.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-16T10:58:00

2005-05-16T15:16:34Z

I need to stop wasting my life.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-05-11T16:01:00

2005-05-11T20:39:16Z

There is no better feeling than sleeping in with You on a Saturday morning.

--♥--

momma_eskimo @ 2005-04-28T09:21:00

2005-04-28T13:49:36Z

So previous entry retracted; the dog has become comfortable with us and as a result has decided to grace us with his true being. Mellow-tempered my ass, this dog is a complete hellian. He seriously is crazy and refuses to participate in anything "puppy", he just wants to drive cars, piss and shit everywhere, bite EVERYTHING (except for his toys), and take on any other activity considered "EXTREME"! It is absolutely hilarious. Eric got him a little spiked collar and it is seriously the cutest thing. Also I swear his ears are growing faster than anything else and he's starting to look like a gremlin or a kirby or whatever. This dog is totally badass. I love him so much and can't wait to take him everywhere this summer.

This weekend should be fun. I'm having girl time with Diana Friday night followed by party time with the guys at Jim's. I'm excited! Not too much longer til everyone else is home, too. Happiness is finally seeing all of your friends in the same place after them being gone for four months. I need to get a new printer so I can start making albums with my digital camera.

Sometimes when Eric is sleeping I take a good look at him and get a little scared because he's so fucking hot.♥

New Puppy!!!

2005-04-18T13:35:33Z

After no thought and much drinking Eric and I ended up adopting a puppy this weekend! He's absolutely adorable; only ten weeks old and he has the longest legs EVER. His name is Doc, or Dog, or Duck, or Bruiser, and mostly LEGS...haha. He's so mellow-tempered for a puppy, I can't even believe it. I'm totally in love!!

momma_eskimo @ 2005-04-13T09:33:00

2005-04-13T13:46:28Z

Jess is coming home Saturday night. I cannot explain how excited I am. I hope Kara's coming home too. I love those girls and have a feeling things will be getting out of control. I'm even more excited about that. I seriously have the greatest boyfriend ever. I listen to people complain about their relationships and while I feel bad it feels really good to finally be with someone I get along with so well. I'm not saying we'll never fight, I know that nothing is perfect. But so far, so good and I'm just really grateful. It's like I have another crazy friend to go out and party with, with all the benefits of having a boyfriend. I was reading back in my old journal and all the times I decided I was done with relationships and didn't think I'd ever find someone. I'm not saying this is ultimate, but I've never had anything this good. It's funny how you don't realize how bad people treat you until you're with someone who treats you well. I'm so lucky.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-04-08T15:05:00

2005-04-08T19:12:03Z

Truckin' like the do-dah man.
Once told me "You've got to play your hand"
Sometimes your cards ain't worth a dime
If you don't lay 'em down

Sometimes the light's all shinin' on me;
Other times I can barely see
Lately it occurs to me
What a long, strange trip it's been.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-04-01T14:07:00

2005-04-01T19:19:24Z

I am so pumped for summer. I was looking at the Tweeter Center's line up and they already have Tom Petty, Dave, and Jimmy Buffet listed. To think that in only a few months I can finally rock out in flip flops again. The beach and the quarries and the drive in and the Portuguese Picnic and Fourth of July and cook-outs and having everyone I love so close by. I get so excited thinking about it. Every summer is better than the last; it's never a let down. This year I'm going to start our group journal so we can record all the crazy times to come. As bad as I itch to get out of Milford summer is that one time that I don't want to be anyplace else but home. I don't think that will ever change.

momma_eskimo @ 2005-03-28T14:03:00

2005-03-28T19:16:15Z

So the past two weeks have been awesome. For starters the Dropkick Murphys show rocked, even though we got there wicked late and only caught the end. They played Dirty Water and everyone was going nuts. I can't wait to see what this baseball season brings after we finally have a Series win behind us. My boyfriend is out of control and gave away about $50 to random homeless people, and to be honest I'm surprised we even made it home that night. Then that weekend Eric and I went to NH with the family and got to see some crazy Africans balance stools in their hands at the bar. We also came to realize that NH is the state for us since there are hardly any laws there and no taxes on alcohol. Then this Friday was finally Hoes and Moses. It was fucking awesome; everyone had a blast and the costumes were great. It warmed up a little this weekend and even though it's raining now you can tell Spring is coming. Mmmm I just can't wait.